Kids Escape

After staying the night with Grandma in Heber the kids were disappointed that we did not stay in a hotel. They didnt get to do anything we told them we would and now they have two parents that couldn’t take them out. I asked Lori to take them to the ice castles.
This was so great for the kids! Caleb really liked the ice slide. Ciara had just watched her new favorite movie Frozen. I had joked before they went that maybe there would be a ice princess in the ice castle. Well… there were. The frozen princesses were there! Ciara was so happy! She wouldn’t leave their sight. Thats all she talked about all day. Im so glad my kids got something fun out of this weekend.
We are hoping for a better rest of the year. Maybe this will start it? More laughter, more fun, more happiness!


Kidney Stones

Our family has had such a rough time recently Ben and I decided we would take some money and take the kids to Vernal. We would go to DinosaurLand and stay in hotel. We bought all new swimsuits for the kids so they could swim in the hotel pool. We bought snacks for the drive up there. We packed up really good. Uncle Aaron was going to join us. We picked him up and after dinner in Heber we started up the hill to Vernal. Five minuets into our snowy drive Ben starts screaming in pain. He has been having bladder problems for a little while and had gone into the doctor that morning. They were going to have a ultrasound done on Monday but it didnt seem serious. This was serious. 
My husband has had health problems his whole life. His pain tolerance is the highest I know in a person. But this man was screaming in pain. I could not turn around because it was dark and snowy. I had to wait until we got to the top of the hill to turn around and take him to the ER. Our kids were very quiet, they had never heard their Dad so miserable. He was trying to keep his screams to himself. The pain was so bad he threw up in our snack bag…. twice.
When we reached the ER I dropped him off with Aaron. I had to find a solution for the kids. I cant carry them myself since I still cant walk. I called up my mother in law who lives in Midway and asked if she could watch them. She said of course. So the kids were taken care of now for my husband. I drove the very snowy road back to the ER where Ben was miserable. After watching him pace around crying out they finally gave him some pain killers. He settled down for a while but it the pain started up again. I had never seen him in so much pain. They gave him another dose and I took Aaron home. 
We were in the ER until midnight. He had a ct scan done and it showed a 3mm kidney stone in his bladder. They gave him pain killers and told him it should pass in the next few days. You just have to bare the pain. The pain killers help but not all the way. 
At this point the snow was really deep. We drove to my mother in laws house and stayed the night. Vacation is off. I am so thankful for my mother in law. She saved us. I dont know what I would have done without her.

Curtis Almost Walking

I have not been able to walk the whole month of January but Curtis is so determined to for me. He is not really crawling yet. But I bought this little push cart and its his favorite thing to do is push it. Grandpa visited and walked back and forth with him for over an hour. 
I picked up some water paints and stamps for Ciara. Her most favorite thing is to do a make over with nails and makeup but painting, coloring and stamps are a close second. 
Being stuck in the house all the time is the hardest on Ciara. She started having accidents and I think its because she dosnt like that I cant do what I did before. The Mini picture is from her cousins birthday. She is obsessed with anything pink or princess. 

Mommys Broken Christmas

On Christmas Day after our wonderful Christmas Dinner with the family I do what I always do, take down the Christmas stuff. Now some of you may say thats bad luck, and after this year I thought twice about it but I say thats crap. I have always done it. When the holiday is over I want all decorations and evidence that it was around gone. I took down the lights outside on our house, the tree, the stockings, the garland on the banister…. everything! Everything was down and in the boxes ready to be stored. I do this because I believe it helps with depression. I dont like waking up the next day to clean up the mess. Or wait with that huge tree in the way until the new year. Thats foolish to me. 

Well….. you may be thinking  Im the foolish one now but as I was taking down the boxes that I had just packed ever so careful I stepped on a present that was left on the stairs and I fell. I fell hard. As I fell I heard a snap in my ankle. I was wearing my leg high boots while I did this, I fell into the box I was carrying down the rest of the 6 steps. I knew right away something was wrong. I was in so much pain. I yelled for Ben. My brother in law Aaron had stayed after the party to chat and him and Ben ran down after me. 
When they pulled the boot off while I screamed Ciara (who is obsessed with Doc Mcstuffins right now and talks about being a doctor and got new doctor stuff for Christmas) says “Let me get the big book of boo boos!” This saying comes from her favorite show. I hurt so bad but she made me laugh and kiss her sweet face. I called my mom to come watch the kids. Before she got there Ben and Aaron helped me up the stairs and to the car to go to the ER. I was shaking so bad. It started swelling instantly. Aaron stayed with the kids until my mom got there. 
Ben took me to the hospital. They were busy so I waited 2 hours before they saw me. X-rays showed that I cracked my fibula. I had to see a specialist. They gave me some painkillers, a splint and some crutches. 
I saw the specialist. It was cracked so badly that I needed surgery. They squeezed me in on the 30th of December right before the new year. I had 7 screws and a plate put in. The pain from that knocked me out for 2 weeks. I was on heavy painkillers. My parents brought in a mattress and bed to put where my dinning room table was because I cant move to get to my room. This was the most hard things I have ever been through. I had people in my house for two whole weeks. I couldn’t watch my kids alone, painkillers knocked me out and I could not get around. I was in a splint after surgery for 2 and a half weeks. Then a bright pink cast for 4 weeks. 

Depression has really gotten the best of me during this time. I feel so helpless and unimportant. I miss my kids so much. Most of our days are spent in front of the television since I cant take them anywhere. I have taken one day at a time. 

Christmas 2013

Day Before Christmas Eve

This was a huge day for us. Ben and I went out the night before. We didnt really have a reason to shop but we decided to have a date and buy one more toy. We went out to the mall and looked at the beautiful lights. I felt very carefree this night. Still and quiet. It started snowing lightly and it was beautiful. 

Christmas Eve

The kids made their cookies for Santa. Caleb and Ciara are at the perfect age right now to enjoy Santa the very most. Ciara was able to participate in everything this year. Our theme this year for some weird reason was mustaches. That day we delivered a bag of gold to our friends with a note that said “In the Spirit of the season I wanted to share some of mustache with you. Merry Mustache!” Just a silly way to say Merry Christmas. The kids loved putting those together. We got a pretty good Christmas bonus and we had saved up so we had a really good Christmas this year. The kids slept downstairs in our room while my parents slept in Calebs room upstairs. We set our our thank you cards for Santa with the cookies and a full glass of egg nog. 
Santa had a pretty late night. He had to set everything out and blow up that pool for the ball pit. But it was so much fun!!! We only stayed up till midnight. 🙂
Christmas Day
We made the kids wait downstairs until we were ready and then let them come up and see what Santa had done for them. At first they were a little overwhelmed. We didnt wrap everything so they could see some stuff. Caleb had 4 big bionicles set out around his presents. The big present he wanted was the skylanders swap force and those bionicles. They are made by lego and they are pretty costly. I have a girlfriend whos boys have grown out of them so I bought their older ones. 

Ciara wanted a kitchen, a unicorn, and heals with makeup stuff. And Curtis got a ball pit and lots of learning toys. We sat him in the ball pit and he was pretty much happy sitting in there while the older kids unwrap their presents. Ben got a BYU hat and an iPad. Mommy also got an iPad and bath and body whole kit. 
I bought toys throughout the months leading up to Christmas and forgot what I bought. They were shipped much later so I we ended up with way more toys then we thought. I think this will be the last year that we go all out like we did. The kids eventually got tired of unwrapping and just wanted to play. 
After the presents
We host the Christmas dinner so after we open everything and look at it all we clean up, move furniture, and set out tables and chairs. Poor Ben got the job of deflating the pool that “Santa” had blown up by mouth only a few hours earlier. 
This year our table looked beautiful. We picked out an ornament for each person in the Payne family and put it in a little stocking with their name on it and a bag of loot with our Merry Mustache greeting. We ordered a very large ham from Honey baked ham and some beef and it was amazing!!! Its my new favorite thing is eating that ham! It was beautiful. I think everyone enjoyed themselves. Jake called to video chat with us, his mission is almost over. Grandma Gardner joined us this year! It was a fantastic dinner. 

And then there was after…… (Next post)

Curtis Eating… Its that Great!

Curtis is 7 months in this great month of December and I am obsessed with this kid feeding himself! Thats right! He wants nothing to do with his mama feeding him anymore. He loves life. And I have kind of gone crazy taking pictures of him eating but he is so stinkin happy when he eats! My favorite thing to feed him is anything with noodles. He can get a good grip on it and it gets super messy! Any and every chance I get I give this kid something to make that sweet little face of his messy.